Former Smiths frontman Morrissey revealed that he has been hospitalized numerous times over the last 18 months to undergo various forms of cancer treatment. In an interview with El Mundo, (via The Guardian) the singer admits to having faced four separate cancer scares.

“They have scraped cancerous tissues four times already,” Morrissey said. “But whatever. If I die, then I die. And if I don’t, then I don’t. Right now I feel good. I am aware that in some of my recent photos I look somewhat unhealthy, but that’s what illness can do. I’m not going to worry about that, I’ll rest when I’m dead.

The singer’s most recent tour was marred by a variety of health issues that forced him to cancel or postpone most of the shows on the tour. Morrissey also mentioned in the interview that doctors have cautioned him to stop touring.